Wednesday, September 30, 2009
For I saw us dancing through sunshine and rainAnd I saw us laughing through joy and through pain
And I saw time passing but we did not change
And I still saw us together at the end of every day .
Whatever u want it
Whenever u need it
Whatever u feel like it , it's gon' be like
U better believe it
Whenever u feel like dancing
U don't have to dance alone , no
U know , u know , u know
U should already know
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u
I choose u .
Darling , all this month we've been together , u've always been so patient and understanding with me ! During that time when I thought everyone walked out of my life , u were there with me all the way telling me that u would always be there even if the whole world turn it's back against me . From then on , I knew u were here to stay for good and I thank God for that :)
I hope this won't be our last anniversary together , I hope that we would still celebrate many more anniversaries to come . U're the one I want to start a new life with , u're the one I want to walk down the aisle with . . . U're the one , darling !
I'm sorry for being such a bitch most of the time and always getting pissed at u and always kek u . I still don't get how u can be so patient and so understanding with me and my weird ass mood swings but I'm glad that u're like this :)
Darling , though u've disappointed me a couple of times , but that ain't stopping me from loving u nor would that make me love u less . My love for u wouldn't change , it would only grow more and stronger ! I love u , darling .
Happy Four Months . 30.05 till the end ~Diana Roxxanne陈芳芳 ♥ Kenny Stevie刘文舜
I'm sorry about just now :(
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Yesterday was my first time experiencing a really bad car accident . Kenny , his little brother and I were the victims and we were lucky to survive with minor injuries :)
The accident happened around 4 - 5 pm , at the road near Ibraco's house . We were driving on the road and there was this rather big piece of concrete wall sticking out , causing us to not be able to see weather there's car at the other side or not . That wall caused us not to be able to see the Honda City coming , causing Kenny to not be able to brake so he swerved and due to the road being too slippery , the whole car went into the drain , which was a medium sized one !
Fucking Honda City stopped for less than two seconds and immediately sped off . Bastard , I hope u get into a freak accident and die a slow and painful death ! Grr .
Kenny's hand got cut cause he was shielding his head from the window which broke , his little brother's a lucky bastard , he didn't suffer from any injuries and I suffered from a really swollen leg which to Kenny's friends , looked as if I grew an extra head -_- One of his friends thought it was muscle . Dumb ass .
Right now , my leg is still swollen and it hurts a lot to walk , so I was practically limping around school today and also trying to walk normal ! Haha .
My temper's really bad right now , it's that time of the month again . It's a good thing Kenny didn't pick me up today ;) HAHA .
That reminds me . Tomorrow is our fourth month together , and the day after is my birthday ! :D I would like to thank Felix for doing an early birthday post for me ! Thanks a bunch , love , that was really sweet of u !
I'm off to do my Citizenship assignment . UGH .
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Going back to school tomorrow after having holiday for a week ! To be honest , half of me is dying to go back to school cause I despise the idea of staying at home for another week or so with nothing to do whereas the other half is wanting another week or so of holiday cause I too despise the idea of seeing my teachers , especially Mr Lim , for God knows how long -_- Yes , and I hate the fact that from tomorrow onwards , I'll be studying 5 days a week for 9 hours straight with only 3 breaks in the middle which doesn't last long and then I'll only be going out for 2 days a week . Damn .
God damn . Y am I complaining as if this is my first time going to school when it's not ? Ugh . I hate school , no , I love/hate it like how I love/hate holidays !
I don't wanna go to school but I don't want another week or so of holidays :( HOW ? Maybe we should have like , 2 days of school and 5 days of fun , that's more than enough for me :D That would probably happen in like cartoons , heck , I doubt it even happen in cartoons ! -_-
I shall go to sleep now . Otherwise I won't be able to wake up tomorrow !
Saturday, September 26, 2009
PISSED .
Have u ever been used before or do u know anyone , probably ur lover/family/best friend . . . anyone , that has ever been used before ? How did u guys felt ? Pissed ? Disappointed at the fact that that person whom u were once so close with is behind all this ?
I'm pissed and disappointed beyond believe ! I never took that person to be the type of person who would just use people for their money , their car etc . It pisses me even more that that person used the one person I love the most in such a way that really make me want to just stomp over to that person's house and give him/her a good teaching !
Yes , I've met those who use other people but I've never , in my whole 17 years ( not yet , but turning 17 soon ! ) , met anyone who uses people the way that person does ! It's beyond cruel , there's no perfect word to describe how this person uses people . Damn .
A certain someone told me that that person would get what he/she deserved soon . I really really hope this person gets a taste of his/her own medicine , of how it feels like to be used this way , of how it feels like to have no other friends to use anymore .
If u're reading this , I hope u wake up and think properly ! If u think this will last , that u're able to use everyone , then u're wrong . No doubt , u have a lot of friends but if u continue using them this way or just using them at all , u're gonna lose them all . I'm sorry to say u've lost me as a friend and I doubt that I'm even important to u as a friend so losing me probably won't mean a thing to u :)
So what if ur dad is famous in Kuching ? That doesn't mean u can just go around and use his name like that ! U not only use other people , u use ur dad's name as well . If I were a parent and if I ever hear my child using my name in a very inappropriate way , I'd beat the fuck out of that child and probably disown him !
How would u feel if someone uses u the way u use people ? How would u feel if one day u were to become a parent and ur child uses ur name the way u use ur dad's ? How would u feel if u found out that someone used ur love one in a really cruel way ?
If ur answer is that u won't feel anything , u're a really heartless person , which I'm pretty sure u ain't .
Friday, September 25, 2009
1. If Esther woo played in a movie, what kind of character would they play?
A bitchy dumb ass :) *2. Would you love to read Jen Kueen's very personal diary?
Yes , I would :D * 3. What would you do if you hadn't met Janalyn Bannavong?
No Kenny , no Core , no a lot of things lo ! She's a good friend :) * and I'm very lucky to have her !4. Do you trust Yew Fong?
Of course !5. Kimberly Kho got turned into an animal! What animal is it?
Something sexy and beautiful ;) *6. What is Kenny Liew's favorite TV show or movie?
Tom & Jerry , Doraemon . . . shows seh kias watch and horror movie !7. How would Sylvester Hii insult Janalyn Bannavong?
He wouldn't insult her de . Jan is da jie , who dare to insult o ?8. What advice would you give Elvin Ong?
COME BACK TO KUCHING RIGHT NOW CAUSE UR MEI MEI MISSES U A LOT ! It's a good advice , kor :) *9. Do you love Tiffany Kho?
OF COURSE !10. Would you marry Maxine Rose?
Of course , if she's willing to ;) * hahah !
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Last night was the best night , except when I got drunk and started crying like a baby cause I thought Kenny didn't want me anymore when he didn't show up at 11:30pm at Core , and I wanna thank Jan , Yew Fong , Josephine , Sylvester , Brandon , Lenny , Chung Ming , Summer , and everyone else who was there last night for being there and for making this year's birthday the best birthday for me :) * And yes , thanks for making me shit drunk !
I am now suffering from a really bad hangover , I'm still wearing the top I wore last night and it has like liquor stains on it , my hair smells of cigarette and liquor and so does my breath , I'm fucking hungry and I keep wanting to vomit and my head hurts like hell . I don't wanna complain cause all this is all worth it ;) *
So once again , thanks you guys and thanks to Kim for going all the way to Core just to pass me my present ! You still owe me a dance , as promised . Lalala .
I love you all so very much ! Muah . Fuck what the Fortune Teller Genius said , last night was a good good night :D *
xx, Di♥
Saturday, September 19, 2009
I wanna , I wanna , I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too every way
Everday , but all I have is time
Our love is a perfect rhyme .
xx , Di ♥
Friday, September 18, 2009
The moment I woke up , I got scolded by her . Sighs . And we ended up arguing at home , in the car on the way to her office and at the office ! I really can't take this shit anymore , very very tiring and depressing . I don't care about the fact that he's not talking to me cause he doesn't really matter to me anymore , I saved him the trouble by disowning myself from him :) You know , I really can't be bothered with anything anymore . I sometimes feel like alienating myself from everyone except for Kenny cause he's the only one who would go through all this with me and not complain a single bit !
-_- My mind's finally cleared . That was a really short rant , who cares .
Kenny came to pick me up from her office at 2 something , nearly 3 , today . I had to wait in the boring , cold office alone for him , but I'm not gonna complain like a baby cause I've waited for him for a year :P Wanted to go to MBO , since I still haven't been there yet , but darling's lao ban was there and he didn't want to be seen by his lao ban cause he was supposed to be at the office working , not going out ! Lousy gong ren :P Teehee .
Ended up stuffing our faces with fried chickens and yummy savoury rice from Sugarbun . It's been ages since I last ate there , maybe a year or so ! Shit , that's long . I don't really like the Sugarbun at Kenyalang , not nice de . The rice so shitty , so wet >_< Gross . But the chicken ok ok niah la :)
After that we just drove around , went to his house to pick up his little brother to work , went to disturb random people , dropped me home . Sorry for being pissed at you , darling ! Me and my crazy mood swings , thank God you understand :) Can't imagine myself without you , my big fat baby ! Muah .
You make me the happiest person alive ♥
xx, Di ♥
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
1. This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
I can handle pretty much anything that doesn't have anything to do with losing your loved ones .
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Liew ♥ and I want it to stay that way till the end !
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
No , I was depressed and felt really dead .
4. When were you last on the phone With whom?
A few minutes ago , with Kenny ♥
5. Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
No .
6. Listening to music?
Yes , and I'm really obsessed with this particular song !
7. What are you excited for?
This coming Saturday and the next time I can see Kenny again :D
8. What were you doing yesterday?
Cried , cried , cried , cried even more . . . Was so depressed yesterday :(
9. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Kenny ♥
10. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
A straw .
11. Have a best friend?
Yes , I do .
12. Are you scared to fall in love?
Hmm_* Half of me is scared , the other half is not .
13. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Yes .
14. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
No one .
15. What time is it right this second?
6:17pm .
16. What do you want right now?
A hug from Kenny :(
17. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
I can't remember .
18. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Engaged ! :P
19. When was the last time you cried?
This morning .
20. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Parents ?
21. Do you find it hard to trust others?
Yes , certain people .
22. How fast does your mind change?
I'm not a good decision maker :\
23. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Yes , you can never imagine how much I miss Kenny right now :(
24. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
No .
25. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Cause we're humans , and humans ain't perfect .
26. Tell me what's on your mind?
A lot of things .
27. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
- Shrugs - .
28. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Yes .
29. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Who's that ? O_O
30. When is your next road trip?
Not too sure .
31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yes .
32. How's your heart?
" I'm hurting really badly . There's a cut on me . " says my heart .
33. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Yes , all the time .
34. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Hmm_*
35. What are you planning on doing after this?
Shower and maybe call Kenny after that .
36. Next time you will kiss someone?
We'll see .
37. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Yes , I have .
38. Who do you not get along with?
Got laa .
39. What does your third text on your phone say?
" Hou tian yao o wo zai office ar " :)
40. What are you wearing right now?
This really shitty looking dress , my school uniform .
41. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
RAWR ;)
42. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Hmm_* can't recall .
43. What's your fave boy and girl name right now?
Girl , Chanel/Bella/Baby . Boy , Kenny ♥
44. How did you feel when you woke up?
Dead and really depressed .
45. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
YES ! :(
46. Do you crack your knuckles?
Yes , especially when I'm pissed/frustrated/sad/bored .
47. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Crying and crying and more crying .
48. What are your LEGAL initials?
DRTFF .
49. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Boon Shao .
50. when was the last time you laughed really hard?
Yesterday , before all that happened .
51. Your close friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
Of course I would . Which close friend would just walk out of your life ?
52. Last awkward moment
Hmm_* can't remember .
53. Are you afraid of the dark?
Yes , a little .
54. Do you have good vision?
No , I need glasses/contacts with degrees .
55. Have you ever tripped someone?
Yes , for fun only though :D
56. Have you ever slapped someone?
Yes , I have .
57. Are you Irish?
No .
58. Do you use chap stick?
Yes , sometimes .
59. Do you have any scars?
Yes , and I don't like it !
60. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Hmm_* don't know .
61. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
I'm more like , engaged to him :)
62. Name the last person to text you?
Kenny Stevie Liew Boon Soon ♥
63. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
Well , age doesn't really matter , right ?
64. Can you go in public looking like you do now?
Well , I went to school looking like this .
65. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a J?
I've kissed Jen on her cheeks :)
66. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
The right .
67. What’s the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
I have no idea , really .
68. Do you fall for people easily?
No .
69. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
Yes .
70. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Sort of :(
71. Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes .
72. Song you're thinking of right now?
做我老婆好不好 - 徐誉滕 it's one of my favorite songs right now , since Kenny dedicated it to me ♥
73. Want someone back in your life?
Yes , my grandpa :(
74. Will tomorrow be better than today?
I hope so , I really really hope so .
75. What’s the colour of your shirt you are wearing?
I'm wearing a dress , a blue and white dress .
76. Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
YES :)
77. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Sort of , yes .
78.Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
-_- I'm engaged , what's so hard to understand about that ?
79.Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
In between .
80.Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Jung Ji Hoon ? Hahah .
Sunday, September 13, 2009
They are alive , well , at least I know one of them is ! Got woken up by a call from her asking me if I have eaten and if I wanted to eat or not . Still haven't heard from the other one . Whatever , I can't really be bothered about all this ! People think I can't live without them , here I am , living only with my brother , his girlfriend and my man :) I'm still alive and kicking .
Darling ta pao-ed for me last night and he accompanied me at home while everyone else was out . I told him it's fine and that he should go back to work , but he didn't want to . . . he ngeh ngeh want to accompany me eat dinner . After he accompanied me , he got scolded by his lao ban :( Sorry , darling ! But thanks for accompanying me , ya . You're beyond amazing , I can't imagine what my life would be like without you !
After this week , I'll be spending my Saturday night partying ! Wooo ~ I can't wait to get out of my house and spend a night with only my man :) It's gonna be one of the best nights of my life ! Can't wait >_<
xx, Di ♥
PS . Darling , remember o . We both still have one more chance ahh :P If you scold one more time , then one week no need find me le o ! HAHAHAHA . I won't scold one , trust me . Because I very bu she de and you know laa , I cannot one day not listen to your voice de oo ! WE BOTH NINE TIMES LE O :P
Saturday, September 12, 2009
走过多少路口听过多少叹息
我认真着你并不知所措
这种迷茫心情我想谁都会有
幸运的是能分担你的愁
能不能靠近一点能不能再近一点
满足我心中小小的虚荣
其实你并不知道在我心中你最美
就像风雨过后天边的那道彩虹
如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的温暖怀抱
如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气
或许我还能给你一点意外
一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝
陪你日出陪你日落到老
能不能靠近一点能不能再近一点
满足我心中小小的虚荣
其实你并不知道在我心中你最美
就像风雨过后天边的那道彩虹
如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的温暖怀抱
如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气
或许我还能给你一点意外
一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝
陪你日出陪你日落到老
如果明天的路你不知该往哪儿走
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我不够宽阔的臂膀也会是你的温暖怀抱
如果你疲倦了外面的风风雨雨
就留在我身边做我老婆好不好
我一定会承受你偶尔的小脾气
或许我还能给你一点意外
一份欢笑一个简单安心的小窝
陪你日出陪你日落到老
Thanks , darling , for dedicating and singing this song to me ! I love you so much . Wo yuan yi zuo ni lao puo :)
xx, Di♥
What am I doing here , at home , when I'm supposed to be out with Kenny ? Haih . Family problem once again . Haven't seen my parents ever since that night ! To prove they're actually alive is that I still receive money everyday and my brother went out with them last night . They stopped calling me , they didn't even wait for me to wake up today to go for lunch , no one woke me up yesterday to go to school , my brother drove me to school yesterday . . . Hmm . They probably didn't know about my stomach problem and how I ended up spending the night at the Kuching Specialist Hospital last night . Feels like we're falling apart >_<
I had this really weird feeling yesterday morning when I woke up for school , at 6:30am . I felt so alone , like everyone in the house was just avoiding me and I felt really transparent . When I called my maid , she didn't response ! HAIH . Went to school feeling so depressed , feeling dead .
Didn't want to wake up this morning but a call from darling woke me up . At least I know I'm still cared by someone ! I woke up to find an empty house with only my maid and Ruffles . My brother's not home , his girlfriend went to work , my parents . . . still haven't seen them !
Maybe I should sleep through dinner tonight and have dinner alone . Maybe I AM having dinner alone tonight .
I need the three of you so badly . Kenny , Esther , Jen , where the fuck are you guys ? T_T
FML .
Friday, September 11, 2009
>_< Promise me you won't cry for me again ! Please . It hurts to know that you're actually worrying about me and it hurts even more to see you cry . I'm sorry , darling , I shouldn't have done what I did last night ! You knew why I acted that way last night and it was because I was scared , yet , you were so understanding and patient with me . You proved to me that you would go to any extend for me , just so that I'd be happy , but why , baby , why that place ? Why did you use that against me ? How could you be so mean ? You knew that it was my weakness , you knew that I didn't want you to go and yet you went . You're so mean , baby , so fucking mean !
Seeing you cry last night was the worst thing ever . You said I was the first girl you cried for ! It hurts , darling , it really does . I'm sorry I made you cry , I really am ! Last night was one of the worst nights . I knew how you feel and I hated myself for making you feel that way ! Darling , it's not your fault I'm like this , it's my own fault for wanting to be like this . Don't blame it all on yourself , ok ? None of this is your fault , it's all mine . I asked for it , I wanted to do it .
I love you so so so much , darling . You were there for me through my toughest time and no matter how many times I scream at you , cry like a baby , bite you till I leave bite marks , hit you so hard till I leave a red mark , push you away when all you wanted to do was to hug me and to tell me that it'll all be ok , get angry at you for something you didn't do , you're still so patient and so loving and caring ! You're so silly , you're an idiot for loving me , for being so caring and patient towards me .
You're my idiot :) And I wouldn't want to change anything about you ( except the fighting part ! ) cause that's what makes you , you and that was what made me fall so deeply in love with you !
Dui ni wen rou , dui ni hao . You ni zai shen bian , wo bu xiang luan pao ♥ Wo yuan yi zuo ni de lao puo :)Diana Roxxanne Ting Fong Fong ♥s
Kenny Stevie Liew Boon Soonxx, Di .
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
LIBRA ( The Lame One )
Nice to everyone they meet . Their love is one of a kind . Silly , fun and sweet . Have own unique appeal . Most caring person you'll ever meet ! However , not the kind of person you would want to mess with , you might end up crying .
Daddy's at KL till tomorrow night .
And since Fel Fel is too busy to come
over to my place tonight to tutor me ,
I took this opportunity to go out with darling :)
Darling你不要这样了好吗 ?
我很担心你 , 你知道马?
我每天担心你 , 我会很累也不满意 .
我爱你darling !
我爱你到永远 .
你永远是我的最爱 ~
不管爱你有多难 ~
我不会停止爱着你 ~
我永远是你的 :)
xx , Di ♥
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Photo taken by Jen Kueen :) Yes , it says Kenny's Property on my face mask .
My right shoulder still hurts like fuck from what happened yesterday !
Some people really act like a wild dog ah , at who also want to bark , with who also want to choi su .
Really like wild dog ah >_<
You la sap kia , you watch out , I tell you .
You think this thing settled liao meh ?
You think I can just let you go after you injured my shoulder ?
You heng niah yesterday Mr Pang and Mr Lim stopped Kenny from looking for you ho .
Cheebai la , if only they didn't stop Kenny , if only they let him look for you .
Some more you call your mommy daddy come ?
Ngaiti , you can settle things for yourself meh ?
You how old liao , still need mommy daddy come help you settle things meh ?
You ever see me bring in my mommy daddy ma ? Never hor .
Cheebai .
Make me so bo mood ah yesterday !
Fuck you , man .
You try choi su with me some more la , you try niah .
Fucking tulan !
